Celebrating 10 months of life altering changes today. The 12th of April, 2021 marks the day I decided that my health and future self was worth all if my own efforts to become very best version of myself that is possible to achieve.
I didn’t exactly know what I was doing. I just knew big things had to happen. The big three, cut the alcohol, cut the crap from the diet , get your ass in gear.
The kindness piece is a pretty important part. I’m still perfecting that one.
We are in our old home town for a family wedding this month so there is a lot of eating out and pub visits in the equation. The reconnection part of the trip is absolutely priceless. I’ve missed these people so much.
Eating out every night is a little challenge but I’m getting used to picking what’s best for me. It’s still a challenge and I’m the pain in the ass of the group, nixing certain spots and/or interrogating unsuspecting waiters and waitresses on how things are prepared then asking for changes.
Last night after dinner we went to one of our favorite old stomping grounds. A great little pub in a subdivision owned by a wonderful couple, and we love the bartenders. My first time there since all these health issues changed me.
I have found that going into bars brings my social anxiety to new heights. I drank my wine to quell that, 100%. I kinda knew that in the past but I’m super aware of this now. I am now into my third book on how to just be without a glass of wine. I’m learning to be happy and comfortable as is, and it’s not super easy. It was crowded, more than normally so and I found myself overwhelmed and anxious, a feeling I need to get past.
Now that I am healed I have had questions about whether I could have a glass of wine again. I honestly didn’t even ask my specialist this question. My thought is that my body is obviously super susceptible to liver disease and I dodged a torpedo here. If I hadn’t made the changes I did downhill fast would have been the deal. Like the Olympic skiers going 85 mph down the mountain, so too, would I.
Recently someone said, that’s great! So you’re eating and drinking again? Hahaha well I never quit eating. Just not like others. And no, not drinking spirits.
So navigating now that my goal has been achieved is still a work in progress. I have a-lot to learn. Still.
Love, Sue
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