Transformations

"Where something becomes extremely difficult and unbearable, there we also stand already quite near its transformation" ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

My butterfly visit over the weekend has me stuck on the theme of transformation. Isn't all healing a form of this? Something goes wrong, and we need a change in order to right it. Will it be the same as before? Maybe a little weaker? Or...maybe, just maybe it will be better, stronger, faster (ok, shameless Bionic Man reference here).

I recall reading a quote years ago about butterflies. If you attempt to assist the chrysalis in it's transformation to a butterfly...if you take pity on it's struggles and quicken the process it hurts rather than helps. It is the struggle itself to re-emerge that builds the strength it needs to actually fly. So we all need to go through hardship in order to rise.

Now, I'm not saying hey guys! Leave me lying on the floor in a puddle if I fall down...no, I'll take your offered hand, kind words or well wishes. But I think I'm accepting that somehow, as I have chosen to look at it, the diagnosis of Cirrhosis has been a catalyst to some really, really good changes in my life, as a whole.

Sometimes we require a catalyst to startle us into motion, to provide the energy we need to "move along, folks...there's nothing more to see here..." thus finding that new, better serving path.

What specifically has changed?

I now start each day in the wee, dark hours all alone, soaking up information. In the beginning it was scary, heavy, dark...but over time it has changed to enlightening, nourishing, light. Things I didn't know were broken are being healed. My body is definitely changing for the better, I have GOT to be healing some of the damage, or at least regenerating parts that are willing. Mind, spirit, soul, all benefiting from the growth.

I seek the little things in life more...take more joy than before, and have more curiosity in learning how things work.

I'm wondering why I did not pay more attention to poets and philosophers in my younger years.

Don't be afraid to transform, my friends.

Love, Sue

****Transformation means (according to Oxford Dictionary): A thorough or dramatic change in form or appearance. A metamorphosis during the life cycle of an animal. The induced or spontaneous change of one element into a metamorphosis during the life cycle of an animal. Physics: The induced or spontaneous change of one element into another by a nuclear process.****

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